Some things I just can't get
Confusion all over

when a sky separates in two

and a beautiful moon is out

Angels descending and ascending from heaven

Standing around my bed

It all sucks

I hate Religion and try to love God

Religion is death God lives

Somebody is out late tonight

just zip that bottle till you fall

Fall down and take a shot

please give me some more so I will feel good tonight

peace comes and goes

The struggle stay's

Someone is laughing now

The sky breaks open and is lid

beautiful light coming out

Angels descending and ascending from heaven

still laughing?

..

Wow this is really a weird poem, I have to say excuse me, since I drank some writing this!
I really don't know why I ended this poem like this, it seems I try to write something that is real, but isn't always there, it is like the whole spiritual world, you have to believe otherwise you can't see. Sometimes we don't want to see, cause it seems all so useless, and a waste of time... often it is seen as a ferrytale which is easy to believe in, (makes life easy), put the responsibility for your actions somewhere else but sure not on you. I think if we really believe it doesn't necessarily makes life more easy, it makes it different, you stay responsible, maybe even more. I'd never even thought before that I would think about this kind of stuff, I really said no, until 2,5 years ago when I had a real touch of God, so to say I repented, and new life came into me. from that day I changed sometimes slow sometimes fast, falling down getting up. I still search for the right way of living life, (not the religion, but the living God) it makes life challengeing and sometimes difficult, but it is worth living, and that is something great.

If you are interested in a more detailed testimony, please feel free to just mail me.

TJ

sometimes your up

sometimes your down

the feeling of hearing a song over and over

finding it is greater than you ever imagined playing it the first time

You know it will not stay

but in the moment it is just brilliant

sometimes your up
sometimes your down

..

You wait till it gets dark

you wait till you're ready

Something disappeared

The way a tree stands alone in a field

seasons changing

No way to run

I'm thinking of the Oaks of righteousness

In the midst of the desert

The house is empty now

only a swing is moving

there is no peace

When you pray it comes

Sometimes it is hard to believe what is truth

since the lie is much better, infact we like the lie

seasons changing
No way to run

The oaks song is still very much in my head
In the midst of the desert

we're running

..

Something small

The world turns anyway

The grass can be green

I search but can't find

Something small

..

What a great sound

Music is the very best created

I hear someone screaming

with a loud voice

Do you hear the trumpet?

She turns her head away

off she goes

disappearing in nowhere

I hear someone screaming

It is beautiful

Where is she going

all alone

search a way to impress

It is crazily hot out here

as someone offers me to pour a drink

I walk out the door

Rushing to get her stopped

as she turns away again

The guitar played me an other song today

It is beautiful

What a great sound

..

note: I just love to write what-ever love it or hate it, I really try not to care!!

Maybe you think I'm nuts, go ahead, I think so sometimes too hehe...

Maybe everybody is nuts in some way, only difference is that I publish my nutsity to the whole wide world from time to time.

Here I stand

You are a three rooted in the earth

A flower quickly fading

What kind of seeds are you planted of

If you would see how blind you are

I'm nothing better, don't get me wrong

I even have respect for you

It feels like light

in fact it is darkness

right is wrong

and the other way around

will you ever understand

Is there a chance your children will not mistake

Open up the earth open up the earth

when all that is, is not

I'm nothing better, don't get me wrong

Turn your eyes upon Jesus

I'm nothing better, don't get me wrong

Turn your eyes upon Jesus

..

The wind blows west

not knowing why I open my window

not knowing why I ride the streets

I wrote something about a bar in NY

For you it is a big deal for them a fragment of time

Somebody is calling my name

It feels ok, but what does feeling say

you want to have it clear?

you think I'm not in control, cause of your stupid actions?

We also have to live from time to time

Rock 'n Roll

or not

I'm getting up

Haven't had coffee for almost a week

even the coffee reminds me

oh no this goes way to far

I should do something

Every word I spoke to you

Every word you spoke to me

it is up there

from time to time to come out

Is it right?

I really don't know

sometimes I think nothing is right

so this must be right

..

You're gone

Again you're gone

I will never forget

the tears you cried

the tears I hide

Could not let go

it came out

later

Why can't you just stay

I have the feeling I know you, and need time

Time to relax

Time to open up

The feeling of everybody leaving

it drives me crazy

why don't you stay

Only God knows how the story ends

We keep in touch we surely do

like always

But I will miss you

always

..