Some things I just can't get
Confusion all over

when a sky separates in two

and a beautiful moon is out

Angels descending and ascending from heaven

Standing around my bed

It all sucks

I hate Religion and try to love God

Religion is death God lives

Somebody is out late tonight

just zip that bottle till you fall

Fall down and take a shot

please give me some more so I will feel good tonight

peace comes and goes

The struggle stay's

Someone is laughing now

The sky breaks open and is lid

beautiful light coming out

Angels descending and ascending from heaven

still laughing?

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Wow this is really a weird poem, I have to say excuse me, since I drank some writing this!
I really don't know why I ended this poem like this, it seems I try to write something that is real, but isn't always there, it is like the whole spiritual world, you have to believe otherwise you can't see. Sometimes we don't want to see, cause it seems all so useless, and a waste of time... often it is seen as a ferrytale which is easy to believe in, (makes life easy), put the responsibility for your actions somewhere else but sure not on you. I think if we really believe it doesn't necessarily makes life more easy, it makes it different, you stay responsible, maybe even more. I'd never even thought before that I would think about this kind of stuff, I really said no, until 2,5 years ago when I had a real touch of God, so to say I repented, and new life came into me. from that day I changed sometimes slow sometimes fast, falling down getting up. I still search for the right way of living life, (not the religion, but the living God) it makes life challengeing and sometimes difficult, but it is worth living, and that is something great.

If you are interested in a more detailed testimony, please feel free to just mail me.

TJ